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AngelMy angel, come into my life tonight.
Share my love and my bed as you will.
Take me in your arms, and give me peace.
Bathe me in your love through the night.
My angel, please say that you will stay.
Be tender to me, always be there for me.
Caress me with a smile and a giggle.
Let me feast on your love forevermore.
My angel, heal my heart as you love me.
Keep me safe as you hold me close to you.
Let your words be sweet and very warming.
Never go astray, just be true to me, love.
My angel, stay with me come the morning light.
Claim me as your own, as I claim you for me.
Let the outside world rage, what do they know?
All that I desire from you is your sweet love.
AsleepIt's past midnight, and I watch you sleep.
You've had a rough day, and so have I.
Now as we rest, I hear the rythym of breath
that is coming from you as you slumber on.
What is it that you are dreaming of, honey?
What is it that is going on inside of you?
I look at your face, so serene and smiling...
it makes me smile back to see you so happy.
I snuggle up next to you, feeling the need
to make my own way to Dreamland's quiet fields.
As I drift off, I caress you lightly with love...
first to grey, then black and finally at peace.
Don't Tell MeDon't tell me what you think I want to hear,
just tell me what really is in your heart.
I don't want to hear things that aren't true,
but tell me things that are real and good.
This is truly what I want to hear from you.
Don't show me what you think I want to see,
for what you are showing has no reality to it.
Don't jive me with illusions you know are fake,
but let me see what you really have to offer.
This is truly what I want to see from you.
Don't tell me "sweet little lies" in my face,
for lies are never truly sweet, but sour.
Just tell my what your heart truly feels for me,
that is what I must ask you to be faithful in.
This is truly what I want to hear from you.
Don't deceive me with sights that are unreal,
but show me what truly lays withing your heart.
To deceive is to destroy everything about us,
and I want to see what you really are about.
This is truly what I want to see from you.
Don't tell me lies and claim they are truth.
Don't show me falsehoods and claim they are real.
Cracking UpI feel the pressure on my soul getting heavy,
and it has begun to affect my mood as well.
There is no place that I can run to right now--
it's as if I'm being dragged back into my Hell.
I feel the tears well up as I collapse down,
my body curling up to ward off the deep pain.
My body quivers as I start to sob pitifully,
the hot salt of my tears falling like rain.
My mind starts shouting horrid and obscene things,
telling me that I would be better off safely dead.
I'm cracking up, breaking for all interested to see...
and yes, I am losing the battle raging in my head.
I feel a pair of arms envelope me tightly, so warm...
and I hear a soothing voice trying to quell my pain.
I fully break open, and the tears flood down my face.
Please God...don't let this be the time I go insane!
For thirty minutes, I weep and purge my wounded soul.
I then calm down...my sanity and my soul fully restored.
I know that this might happen yet again in another time...
for when the pain is too great, it can nev
RebornI was laid out on the table.
The IV was already in my hand.
They were about to shave my chest.
But they did not...no hair there.
Doc masks up, Betadyne is applied.
"Good to see you lost weight" he says.
The medication takes effect rapidly.
The last thing I feel is trickling...
I awaken an hour later in my room.
My chest bears two dressings now.
The pacemaker, I am told, works fine...
and today, I was reborn anew.
when you came into my life,
your brightened it so much.
your first kiss eased my pain
and began to set my soul right.
your touch soothes my worn nerves,
bringing my anxeity down with love.
your soft words bring me inner peace,
giving me the strength to continue on.
your embrace smothers me with love,
letting me know that you really care.
never leave me, always love me true.
Just as much, honey, as I love you.
Under A Harvest MoonThe Libra sun has gone to bed for the night.
A yellow disk in the sky lights our way home.
The fall is here, and tonight the sky is clear...
and home is not that far away, by my reckoning.
The fall chill renders your cheeks apple-pink,
as I hold your hand and guide you down the street.
We both stop to make a wish on the harvest moon,
then look at each other in the pale moonlight.
You lean forward and kiss me on the lips tenderly,
your taste of wine, cider, and spice intriguing.
You caress my cheek and tell me you love me so--
then we turn down the road, and towards home we go.
Soon we are home, and I open the door with our key.
As we step inside, I draw you very close into me.
The harvest moon lights up through the window-pane...
assuring me that, at least here, the world is sane.
I'm Alone...I'm alone once again, not by choice.
It's just that company eludes me.
I sit at my screen, typing away again--
with only a chilled drink for my friend.
I've stood alone in many crowded rooms,
never understanding the why or what for.
I only know that at the end of the night,
I return to a cold-and-lonely bed unmade.
They say I will heal and find happiness...
but how can they say that and not know me?
I long for what I cannot have, but why?
I guess that's because I'm human and alone.
I'm alone once again, not by choice.
I see the stain and feel the pain
that come with loneliness unescapable...
my own scarlet letter for my heartbreak.
There Comes A Time...There comes a time when I look at you,
and know that your love is no longer there.
All that I can see is contempt in you...
so I must now take my leave of you for good.
You may say that you really love me, but
your actions have proven to belie your words.
One minute you embrace me and caress my hair...
the next minute, you look at me with disdain.
I do not know what to believe about you now.
When I took you as my own so very long ago,
all that I wanted from you was your love.
You, obviously, had other ideas about it.
So now I must take my leave of you forever.
I'll shed tears for a while, there's no doubt.
But I knew there would come a time for this...
and now, the time has come for me to leave.
Lust pt. 2I finally had made it home, sighing in relief at the warmth of my apartment. I glanced down at the chicken scratch on my arm and frowned. Should I even go? I don't even know this guy. Not to mention he didn't have a face, which was even more strange. I shook my head, I didn't want to think about this right now. Thoughts of sleep were filling my mind as I went into my room and grabbed a notepad from my desk, jotting down the address to google it tomorrow morning. Afterwards, I trudged to the bathroom and took a short, 15 minute shower. The warmth of the water calmed me down and eased the soreness in my body. After that, my thoughts consisted of nothing but sleep.
I didn't even bother to wrap the towel around my body, I just walked out of the bathroom drying my hair with the towel. I couldn't help feel like I was being watched, but I didn't think much of it in the end. I put on my comfortable large T-Shirt and crawled into bed, sighing contently under the covers until I drifted off into
Lust pt. 1I was never the loving type, even if my name had a romantic meaning behind it. Lilly is my name. A name of a flower which often represented love in its early stages. Hell, I don't even act like a girl - I may look like one, but I think more like a guy, but that's besides the point. I had a boyfriend, and I won't even mention his name. It doesn't even matter anymore. He was abusive, hitting whenever he wanted. I got sick of it and finally hit him back, but it wasn't a good idea. I may think like a guy, but I am not strong like a guy. I'm a feeble woman, with not much strength. On the night I ran out of my ex's house, everything changed much quicker than I thought even possible....
My bare-feet trudged upon the cold concrete. I should've gotten my shoes and my jacket. I was freezing, nothing but the cold breeze of the outside embracing me. My tank top and jeans didn't offer me much protection from the bitter, unforgiving breeze. I sighed, bringing my hands to my mouth an
Shedding SkinSomeday I'll be cured,
I'll shed my skin
Someday I'll be found,
I'll stop being lost
Someday I'll be free,
Show off my arms
Someday I'll be known,
For my troubling fight
Today I'm in pain,
The wish to harm
Someday I'll be cured,
I'll shed my skin
FutureI sit here waiting for you to see
That it's with you I'm meant to be
If we can survive, we'll have a family
Husband, son, cat...
SingDo you ever hear the pounding?
Of the blood through your veins
It starts to hurt
Singing for the blade.
Do you ever feel the stinging?
Of old scars outlining your story
Don’t do it
Singing for the blade.
Do you ever hear the ticking?
Of the clock as time slows
The blade runs
You sung for the blade.
FailureI've lost my dream
It's shattered, gone
I stand here with shards surrounding me
Dreams of a future
A career and happiness
and I'm left here
So once again,
I turn to the blade
to find it gone.
I thought I'd recovered
I was denied my hope
it laughs in my face
Death, is what I want.
HopeA dark sooty tunnel
No sense of light, or end
Sits a young girl, dying
Of her own self misery
A hand reaches with a smile
And pulls her out
Words act like hugs
Her spirit rises
With his words, she returns
She brings back her old truths
What were once memories
She removes from boxes
She’s a new girl
Confident, smiling, laughing
He stands looking at his work
He’ll catch her if she falls
No one recognises this girl
They only recognise her shell
Her soul has returned
She’ll prove them all wrong.
She barely recognises herself
But she’s not alone
She stands strong with a friend
A friend who pieced her back together
A friend, called hope.
You've been with me.You've carried me in your arms.
You've protected me from harm.
The journey has been long.
Not much further shall it prolong.
I'm in the home stretch.
I'm close to finishing this race.
I've been through the darkness.
Overcame the obstacles I had to face.
You heard me when my voice felt unheard.
You listened to me rejoice and complain, ever single word.
I feel a sense of closure.
I've been trying to keep my composure.
Praise be to you my Lord!
I'll dance in the joy of hope.
Bring on the thunderstorm.
I want to see what else I can cope.
Life has its up and downs.
It gives you smiles and frowns.
I know you will always be near.
In Jesus, whom shall I fear?
I'm not fine, please help me
Enough about me
I'm hiding something
I'm just saying that.
I need you
I'm about to attempt suicide
I'm just tired
I can't take this anymore
I already ate
I can't eat. I want to starve
Don't leave. Care enough to stay.
I love you
You're the one person I trust
I don't love you any more
I do, I just don't want to hurt you.
I've cut, I don't want you to see the scars
I'm better, I promise
I'm the worst I've been, I lied
I want to die
Just one more
I'm not going to stop.
Take MeTake me into your arms tonight.
Hold and caress me with love.
I have had a hard day, my dear...
and only your love can set it right.
Take me and make love to me tonight.
Repair these heavy tears in my heart.
Hold me in the afterglow as we rest,
and soothe my soul as I finally sleep.
Take me as your very own forevermore.
Love me as much as I love you, my sweet.
Cheer with me in my coming victories,
and soothe me in any losses I do incur.
Take me into your arms tonight.
For I belong to you, and to no one else.
Give me the love that I have craved today,
and know that your love will be safe witm me.
five hour energyi suppose
last week was only an aftershock
of the earthquake you were before.
this place used to vibrate
with metal strings and melodic,
testimonies to life,
emitting coffee-scented moods
and the burn of it too.
i had memorized the
sounds of silence,
i couldn't help but relish it.
no longer had i known
the sounds of folk
and scent of mocha-
you became nothing more
than an echo of the laughter
i so desperately needed to hear again.
then the echoes got louder,
bouncing ferociously off the walls
to be made manifest
i walked into your room
expecting exactly what i found-
an unmade bed,
and an empty beer
(the one that you insisted you needed
just days ago).
i pressed my nose
into the pillow
for incense and cologne and starbucks
to penetrate my mind
and thinking fervently
i already know
what a clean sheet smells like."
how strong an aftershock can be,
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